Why can't I ever smell it?
My life has become a living hell.
Wherever I go people make comments, give me those horrible glaces, open windows in front of me or when I step out of the room for a minute. Someone went into my room recently and teh head literally jumped back with the smell.
No one invites me out to the theatre or for a meal anymore.
You can't really blame them for being a public place. They don't want people thinking they
Doctor tells me he can't smell anything, which is completely insulting to me as it's implying that all the countless people's horrible reactions to me are in my head, which is absurd.
any sort of solution I try I don't even know if it works or not because I can never smell anything.
But i know how bad I smell because of how other people react, and it just seems to get worse as the months go by. I can smell it off my bath towels though, seems to be a strong urine smell. I've noticed that showering does me no good and seeing as my towels stink even though I supposedly onyl use them when I'm clean just shows how bad this problem is,
I'm literally trapped at home. I'm terrfied of leaving the house, as usually some "incident" occurs and I'm then just so depressed and feel like crying.
Been trying charcoal and chloropyll lately but I don't think it's working.
I honestly don't know what to do. I'm unemployed right now and can't ever see me getting a job with the smell this bad. Interviewers are going to think "no fkn way" as soon as they get hit by the smell.
I feel completely alone as my "friends" don't want to know me, and I don't really have any family. My mom passed on and I'm not close to my father.
I'm really at a low ebb right now.