Re: can you help?

A few things:
Love is not a thing, it is a feeling. You don’t give or receive love, you feel love.
“I indifferently give love where i can, unconditionally, but distanced.” You are talking about attention. You are polite and you show people that you care, that you would like to help.
“ I felt happy and secure, silent in his arms” You can’t feel secure in someone’s arms if you don’t trust them.
My advice is to go back to the time you were abused and remember every detail, every feeling and every fear so often and for so long until memories stop coming. It will hurt but you will survive (you already did). This is the only way to set yourself free and start living in present.

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