Your mind is a weapon you can use to work with you or against you.
You already have a mindset that if anything is going to go wrong, it will happen to you.
You already have a mindset that you will go to the emergency room.
So, try this.......
Tell yourself this will be the best thing you have ever done. You will lose weight (it's temporary, but we women need all that encourgement we can get) and you will sleep better. Your skin will look better than it ever has. Your allergies will improve. Your eyes will be brighter. You will have a peace of mind you have never known before. How much better can it get?
Then, the night of your flush, make an evening out of it. My 5th flush, I played my favorite CD, took an enjoyable bath, had candles, etc. In other words, I did everything that I liked to do and had an evening of pampering for me. It was a wonderful evening and I had a wonderful flush!
If I could hold your hand, I promise I would. The best I can be is here for you in cyberspace. But, I will be here.