First of all, you have my compassion. I have dysplastic naevi (probably incorrectly spelt) which is basically a whole lot of brown spots on my torso. I am so self conscious I can't even form a relationship with a girl. So I have been single for as long as I can remember!
Anyway, all I am saying is ... I kinda understand.
Suicide may land you up in Hell, so please don't do it! Horrible thing to say, i know, but sometimes one's just gotta say it...please don't hate me for it, I say it for your benefit believe it or not!
I will pray for you tonight, you just stay alive, alright Anita. Please. You are gonna be OK.
Buy some EMU OIL and apply it liberally and frequently.