Re: I created a living horror,im going to end my life.
I am so sorry about your desperate situation. I kind of felt that sense of fear when I fell asleep at the beach and think developed 2nd degree burns. OMG - it was sooo scary - my whole face bloated and turned bright purple.
Anyway, I spent one week out of work, because people would actually stare in horror when the saw me.
What I used to heal:
Yogurt, freshly squeezed carrot and cucumber juice, aloe vera (lots of that) Vitamin E, pure coconut and castor oil and fish oil, and
Colloidal Silver . Cocoa butter is also magnificent for scars.
Now, for the bloodroot, I used it on my husband's back on a 'growth' (better word?) that could not be eradicated with anything else for several years. I put it on with a pin that's how little I used maybe 4 days in a row. Well, the thing turned into a volcano and I just put a gauze and bandaid on it each day, until it seemed to have done its job, whatever it needed to do. Then I started using Neosporin, very little on the wound and keeping a gauze and large band aid or medtape on it.
It eventually healed but remained indented and red, and has continued to get better.
It did take a while - but it did get much better, have not checked lately but will and let you know.
If I can get to do - I will post pictures though it may be a bit scary - the thing is that you could see that it can eventually heal.
I only used Neosporin on him becasue it was his back, but maybe you can try some of my concoctions for your wounds? Also, honey and milk are healing.
With my face I never let it get dry always putting on one or the other of the things I mentioned. Especially the castor, coconut and fish oils,(I opened capsules of cod liver or fish oil) I smelled like fish but hey - I loved the mental 'security blanket' it provided. - and finally I got pectin at the market and placed that on my skin and let it dry and it helped to get rid of dry dead skin as it came off and replenish the skin with some good antioxidants I think becasue within a week I had completely new skin, all the burned skin gone.
A very scary experience.
I hope you can find some things that will work, but more than anyhting, you need patience. There was a lady in the bloodroot forum that psoetd pictures of her arm - I wonder if she will post on her progress for you?
All my best wishes for you - pray and meditate, and by the way you have to drink a lot of water and eat very healthy foods to help the skin to renew.
If you can think of something wonderful for you: put it on the wounds, like maybe fish skin, some fresh fruits or juices, oh yes I put pinneapple juice with yogurt too one day.
Most of all relax, sleep a lot to let the body heal.
Best to you, will keep you in my prayers.
MadArt (ist)
Edit add: [figured I need to add this note here, for ref memory sake]
** regarding sunburn: NEVER slough off dead skin that is still attached - the bod must discard, shed, dislodge on its own. Otherwise, little 'roots' will rip out and the pain and damage will be more severe. Also - on a side note - (gross but effective) the best dead skin exfoilator: the skin that is coming off mixed with the oils. (Gross again) but... it does not scrath or hurt the new raw skin. It is soft and pliable and rolls with the sloughing skin to make little collecting bundles that eventually will mean clean and renewed skin. Ther's no need to collect, just as you massage new oils in, the process becomes one on its own. ****
last note: Please, pardon my dyslexia... So forgive all transmuted letters and mispelled words :)