You really are not alone. We are all learning to love ourselves here because it is such a major factor in the healing we are all seeking.
You can be honest here and share whats going on like you have. Way to go . . . your on your way. Just by acknowledging what you have is a HUGE step in the right direction.
With Uny's expertise and the support of this forum you can do it . . . You really can. I'm a testimony to it myself.
We are glad you are here.