This post is meant to be puzzle pieces for examination...for you (lajoanna) and for everybody else.  Simple (albeit possibly "blunt edged") puzzle pieces for anybody to lay out on the table and put together in a way that's most beneficial for them.  I am human - my pathways, perspectives and healing methodology may not be what is best for anyone else...and even though I'm about to lay out all the puzzle pieces that have come into play on my healing/life pathways - doesn't mean there's not more pieces in someone elses life.  And then we have me "putting on my Dr. Schulze hat" and illuminating the puzzle pieces I think he would bring to light (which are not possibly blunt-edged, they ARE blunt-edged).

So here we go - a box full of puzzle pieces :)

*****Yes, of course, loving ourselves is a good thing (a VERY good thing).  And yes, many times it is imperative to love ourselves in order to achieve a full body healing.  BUT there's many times when loving ourselves doesn't have Jack Schitt to do with it.  Wanna get over an infection? Eat raw garlic.  Do you have to love yourself for it to work? NO.  Do you have to love yourself to make yourself take it? NO.  All you have to do is want to get over the infection enough to eat the garlic.

...but I don't WANT to eat the nasty garlic!  Does this mean I don't love myself enough to heal myself?  Nope, it generally means you hate garlic a little more than you hate the infection :::grin:::  (and it also means we've ALL been conditioned to think true healing can come out of some kind of a bottle that is tasteless, insurance will pay for, and requires absolutely no effort or displeasure on our part).  If we had to eat a sweet juicy peach to rid ourselves of an infection, we'd be doing it.  Think about that...eating the garlic really has VERY little to do with self-love, it has to do with 1) how much do we really want to get over the infection 2) how much do we believe in the garlic - and how much safer/better it is than the alternatives that may be "easier" 3) self discipline.   (okay, sure, it helps if you love yourself, but it's certainly NOT required for you to force yourself to eat the garlic, or for the garlic to work).

:::Dr. Schulze hat:::  Either take the garlic or I'm kickin' your whiney butt out of my office - if you want to get well, you'll take the garlic!  End of story.

*****If I'm a "natural caregiver", is it really LACK of self-love when I sacrifice for others (or give up/sabotage my hopes & dreams for others)?  Or is it an ABUNDANCE of self-love & self-preservation?  Example: I'm a first born that didn't have a sibling until I was 6 1/2 years old...almost an 'only child' in the 'birth order personality schema'.  There are certain traits that I have simply because of my birth order (and the positive/negative reinforcments I received as a child).  MUCH is expected of a first-born (especially when born to young parents)...and we gain approval & self-esteem by DOING whatever it is required.  For various reasons in my lifetime, I received/gained approval (and self-esteem) by being a problem solver, an 'entertainer' and a caregiver (of sorts).  I am particularly good at bringing attention to myself (creating a diversion), so that people I love won't fight.  I feel BEST when I'm helping others, 'diverting problems/fights', and explaining various truths that helps others to solve their problems. I feel FANTASTIC when I'm doing that, because that's what makes ME feel best about ME!!  (those things were rewarded and received the positive reinforcement that created the personality I now possess).   Not only am I good at it (YAY! makes me feel good), but I get to help others (YAY! makes me feel good), and I get to use all the things I've struggled hard to learn to bring enlightenment to others (YAY! makes me feel good again).  I love MYSELF a LOT ...in fact, I love giving myself all those "YAYs" so much that I will deprive myself of sleep for days on end, dump MY 'kitchen/life duties' onto Rocky, abuse the herbal Kola Nut tincture (so I can stay awake), and not get my garden planted, go outside into the sunlight, or take time to relax & play...because doing those "good for me" things when there are others that need my help, makes me feel selfish, stressed and HORRIBLE/BAD!  Does that mean I don't LOVE myself?  Far from it!!  What does it mean?  Consider this: 

It is said that once we graduate from high school or college we stop learning & developing and spend the rest of our life earning a living, functioning and REacting to various things based upon the knowledge, learning & personality we developed during our early years.  And I think it's fairly safe to say that for most of us that is the truth (in most ways).   The things we did 'in those days' (or still do now) that made us feel good about ourselves, that created positive reinforcement & rewards, removed a negative situation... (removing a negative is also a positive reinforcement...that's why mommies constantly give in to those screaming children in the grocery store - it removes a negative situation/stressor - hence creating positive reinforcement/reward to the mommy - and she'll generally do that 'giving in' once she starts, until she doesn't have to take the child to the store with her anymore) ...is what we're most likely to do to feel worthy & good about ourselves today.  And they're what makes us feel best about us.  In these cases, it's NOT a lack of self-love that stops us from doing the "right" thing for our current situation - it's a lack of personal growth; it's a lack of understanding how OUR world & environment has changed; it's a lack of having parents & peers praising, rewarding (or removing negatives) to reinforce our actions to create NEW personalities, purposes & agendas that coincide with the goals we have NOW and the world/environment we live in NOW. 

In this case what we need to do is lay out those puzzle pieces (of the past) and see exactly how/why we developed these traits...and get out the puzzle pieces (of "now") and see exactly what we need to do (and what we need to drop, add, or alter) in order to learn to feel good about ourselves NOW when we do the things that SHOULD bring us positive reinforcement, but don't.  The big "grrrrrr" - we have to do this INTENTIONALLY!  We have to realize there's going to be NO ONE there to pat us on the back and give us the equivalent of a big lollipop because we stayed on our juice fast and did what was best for us.  In fact, "they" have made it so that true growth (physically, emotionally & spiritually) earns us NEGATIVE reinforcement.  Instead of people saying, "Wowee COOL!  You've found a natural way to heal yourself and never have to go to a doctor? WOW - that's AWESOME!  How did you do it? Where did you learn how? Tell me!! Show me!  I WANT TO DO THAT, TOO!  You're SO incredible - you're always learning, always sharing, and always coming up with the NEATEST stuff!  I really understand why you don't want to eat "this" now - and I'm SO glad you shared.  I want to be more like you...always learning new things & sharing/helping others.  Jeez, you look SO healthy - I want to look/feel that healthy TOO!!"   But folks,  that is NOT going to happen (or rarely, if ever).  People that are stuck in a muddy stinky rut, do NOT want you to be a ray of sunshine, hope or enlightenment.  The ONLY thing that makes them feel good about their pit/rut is when they have acceptance, lots of friends in the same boat, and lots & lots of 'misery loves company'.  Yes, it IS "The Matrix" that we live in - and it's VERY understandable when we want to 'ditch the fight' and 'ditch the right' in order to have that huge feast of rare prime rib of beef, wine & plush desert instead of eating that horrible mush that's true nutrition...but that doesn't mean we/I don't love myself.  It means I need to learn more, change more, grow more, and SURROUND MYSELF WITH THE TRUTH AND THOSE THAT KNOW THE TRUTH AND WILL SUPPORT, PRAISE & LOVE ME AS I GROW INTO THE TRUTH.  (AND! stop listening to all those OLD tapes of conditioning that once served a VERY good purpose, but now do nothing but limit me and hold me back from new & very important victories).

*****Self discipline vs. Self love vs. really understanding, grasping & believing the TRUTH.

The truth - if you didn't have some kind of negative health issue, you wouldn't be reading this.  If you believe you can cure yourself with allopathic medicine or alternative 'science', you are deceived (or you're deceiving yourself)...and if you continue NOT learning, NOT addressing the cause of the symptoms that your body is begging you for help with, NOT undoing decades worth of damage, NOT taking responsibililty for your OWN health?  Nobody else will do it for you...and you WILL get worse; you WILL degrade, and you can look forward to gradually turning into a weak, powerless, symptomatic, decrepit, likely impoverished, miserable, poisoned, disabled piece of scared, lonely, REGRETFUL, "nursing home rot", "fodder for the greed machine", or cancer victim.  And you WILL die hooked up to tubes in every orifice of your body while being pumped full of morphine in a hospital room where no one you love wants to be near you, and the last sound you hear will be your heart flat-lining. 

Don't believe it? Then take your (truly) sadly uniformed self to a nursing home TOMORROW!  Look at what they have to eat, and how they are loving & relishing the last years of their life! Take a well-deserved trip to a cancer ward - imagine what a radiation burn feels like; imagine what it's like to have to vomit 8 times a day! (you would never do that? really? Are you doing what you need to do to prevent it?!  When you have a cancer tumor and you're sicker than a dog, just HOW are going to have the energy to do the IP? And HOW are you going to fight your children & relatives than are insisting you're incapable of making a rational decision and basically forcing you to get the 'best' treatment you can?  If "they" can FORCE a 13 year old to be injected with chemotherapy, how long do you think it will be before they can force YOU?).  Wake up and smell the burnt toast people - the Posers/Powers That Be are NOT playing games - they are SERIOUS about their agenda!  Are you serious about yours?

I worked at a hospice for two years.  I've seen a woman tear a cancer tumor off her face out of pain & shame at her appearance; I know what it's like to feel the anguish of a piece of rotting flesh that used to be a MAN have his last wish be that he could take a leak standing up like a man.  I've counseled women that were dying and had to find new parents and foster homes for their precious children and tell them that their mommy is dying next month (tough life kiddies, your dad abandoned me and now I'm off to die).  I've known of HUNDREDS of people that can't get out of their home-hospital bed so they can poop...and get to have the joy of somebody giving them an enema and crapping all over the bed every day (or whenever whomever it is that is caring for them at home can stand to do it...and generally that's only after they're in pain from not having a bm for days!)  Think it won't/can't happen to you?  HORSESH*T!  You (and I) are no different than ANYBODY ELSE!  A couple of colon cleanses, a dozen liver flushes and a switch to a few organic foods isn't enough to undo 2,3,4 DECADES of poisoning & abuse AND protect you from the simple fact that 40 years ago the air you breathed contained 30-35% oxygen, and now it contains 12-18% oxygen!  HALF!  We're living on HALF the oxygen we lived on 40 years ago.  Do you want a CHANCE to live a decent life span (free of disease, pain & infirmity), and have a halfway peaceful death? 

Then you'd better get your head around it NOW and do something about it!!!  I think each and every one of us already loves ourself enough to do it.  I think that MOST of us don't do it, because we still live that ignorant, ridiculous 'teenage fable' that "it" can happen to someone else, but "it" will NEVER happen to YOU!

*****Yes, there are those of us that have strong self-discipline, that really do believe & understand the truth, but that don't really love & care enough about themselves to change their actions.  In actuality, I feel this is rare...and here is why:

Most all of us will do what we know to do that makes us feel good physically, and that makes us feel good emotionally & spiritually (because we DO love ourselves)....but in my experience of helping others over the past years, I find the following issues to be more of an impact than whether or not we love ourselve:

-- not having enough TRUTH in a society where truly NORMAL lifestyle & eating choices are considered freakish.

--decades worth of being plowed with fluoride (creating a level of numbness and apathy/complacency never before known in the world), that is virtually impossible to recognize in oneself, due to a lifetime of fluoridation... not to mention the 10-20 point drop in IQ that comes from just drinking fluoridated water for a year.

--changing our social circle & lifestyle to create one that is truly wholesome and normal (when we really do not WANT to)...because we're not willing to address the fact that we're still stuck in that 'playground mentality' where we'd rather go along with the crowd and do something we KNOW is wrong/bad, than to stand up for what is right/normal and be ostracized, criticized or alone.

--undertaking the task of restructuring our psyche of what is truly "good for us" and what we SHOULD do to put our 'self love' into ACTION.

--actually depriving ourselves of actions, lifestyle choices (and food choices) that have been the foundation of our lives for ALL of our lives.

--and not understanding, believing, or being willing to learn THE TRUTH (that will light the fire under our sorry butts to CHANGE)...that there really IS a 'conspiracy reality' and it's been very real for CENTURIES.  There is a select group of very powerful people that consider mankind to be "useless eaters" and that have less respect and concern for your life (and that of your children), than you have for a germ on the kitchen counter.  And this group IS intent on global domination & enslaving mankind.  We don't know it or believe it because they are working a centuries old plan and they are playing a VERY insidious slow hand.  Each and every move they make that strikes us as negative or somehow abnormal is given years to ensconce itself into society (and most ALL of it was introduced as something that was "good" for us).  What they are doing makes Hitler's propoganda and influence of a few countries look like cotton candy.  Already "they" can track your every move via GPS (GPS: something we thought was 'good for us' when they introduced it into our automobiles & cell phones); with cell phones/towers (frequency weapons) they have the ability to neutralize entire groups/areas of humans; they have the technology to actually read EVERY WORD of every thought in your mind, and they have the ability to implant whatever specific word/thought they want via the various frequencies you invite into your world via the use of cell phones & digital television (c'mon, you don't really think our government cares about the quality of our tv reception,so they're FORCING everyone to switch to digital???); with last years introduction of genetically modified SUGAR, now 70-90% of ALL products on grocery store shelves contain extremely health-destroying gm ingredients; all leafy greens are now mutated via irradiation (as well as the vast majority of other foods) causing them to contain substances that are NOT natural to the human body OR this planet.  And likely THE most insidious? They've created "the matrix" on the internet, and convinced many of us to ignore the actual true world and our solid existence, instead of focuing on what is REAL.  Our COMMUNITIES? Our NEIGHBORS? Our FAMILIES?  Our REAL support network?  They can pull the plug on the Matrix they created anytime they want to...and just where will be then?  at their mercy.

Less than 80 years ago (in the Depression) the millions of out-of-work, starving Americans (that got to 'be that way' at the hands of our government) did NOT contemplate "if they loved themselves" enough to do what was right and necessary to ensure their own health and survival.  They just DID it.  Why don't you?

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Let truth & freedom REIGN -

Unyquity & Rocky53

Very applicable sentiments from Lajoanna in a previous post/thread:

>>>I just want to say that I appreciate and need your tough love. This is not a game we are playing. I really feel the genuine desire you have for people to take responsibility for themselves and get well. As I walk through the IP, I ask that you be tough on me. No disrespect to MO123, but hugs and kisses ain't gonna do it anymore!<<<