Re: Thanks sooo much Tracey

Hey Tracey,

Thanks so much for the information...it really helps me feel that it's not just me going completely overboard. Yep I definitely know that I need to change things, I've known that for a while. But now I think it's got to that point where I have no option but to change. It's far more painful staying the way I am...I must embrace change. For me it's about sexuality, ego, desire to help others, ability to express my souls purpose. This is all sacral chakra stuff and it's just so intense right now. I literally wake up at 4 or 5 in the morning full of fire! So indeed it is about disciplined change and restructuring. Half of me just wants to go awol and let off steam and the other half is saying to take it slowly. I need to find an outlet for this energy because it keeps going back into me- which ain't too good.

Right now I'm feeling mega sensitive- I had some spiritual healing on Friday and so much stuff is coming up...definitely feel as if I'm having a healing crisis.I used some rose quartz last night and I think it brought up even more stuff. Ahhh I just feel horrible...I want to cry and cry and cry. I wish I could give you a hug right now :)

One of the things I've wanted to incorporate into my life is Reiki- not to charge anyone, but just to help people. Somehow I felt that I need to be 'sorted' before I can treat. I think this is an old voice coming up, as even when someone might be feeling unwell they can still transmit energy. After all it is universal energy and we are only channels, not direct healers in this respect.


Looking over what I just wrote, I realise there are lots of 'I's.
I hope things are getting better for you and your october flows smoothly. How have you been finding things?

Muchos love and hugs,

Ollie xxx