Re: this...

Oh Tracey, thanks for all your thoughts and caring.

The thing that shocked me most was the way he told my husband everything after i'd defended his honour despite the outcome to me. He was a little economical with the truth as well, just tried to save his own skin and 'to hell with me' so to speak. He said that he was the injured party and blamed me for him losing his job after barrackading himself in his flat for three days after the 'stress' i caused him. He omitted to add how much he had led me on in the first place so took the cowards way out. Ah well - you live and learn.

Right now i feel as though my entire body is filled with ice, i swing between crying and drifting off by watching mindless t.v. My husband has been a tower of strength despite the pain he is obviously in. He knows i'm always searching for that missing something elsewhere (mainly in being accepted by men) but he also said that it's there already, in myself - just got to learn how to find it heh?!

Thanks again, you're a wonderful comfort.

Much love, Lorraine