Thanks Tracey and Padders can you add anything else? :)

Think you've hit the nail on the head with this one Tracey :(. He is now pulling away and i'm pushing him to make a decision and i know im hurting him so much because he wants to do what is right and that is to let me stay in a stable marriage. He has absolutely nothing to offer me apart from love and excitement and i suppose i should grow up now - finally! It's so hard he is my husband's best friend so he is torn between us and has cried many tears over this situation. Perhaps i should send him unconditional love and let that side of our relationship die, i haven't been physical with him, i dont want to do that to my husband but it's been such a battle.

Thanks Tracey, i will meditate on releasing old karma and rebuilding a once close and loving relationship with him again.

Hope all is well with you.

Much love, Lorraine