Re: What would you do?

Crazy thing is i have it all planned out in my head...

I currently live in the midwest. I would be moving to a new state where my mother is, stay with her for a month while I find employment, and get an apartment or small house. I have already talked with her about the possibilty, and she is all for it.

I have talked to my daughter, her only concern is changing schools. My son is 9... pretty easy going, and would love to see his "grandma"

I think he admires him, just because he is the only other "guy"

The house, we rent. He can have it.

I have no family here. I do not like it here, its boring, period. Small country town. "He" wants to stay here. Buy a house here, and "settle" BUT only because his local union is only 15 minutes away...

I actually did talk to him, about an hour ago. He says I am being shifty, and i need to just settle down and be happy. Thats what he wants, to settle. I am not ready to live out my life, knowing in the back of my mind, this is not where i want to SETTLE.

Something about me personally is I tend to be very dominant, and do well on my own. Having a man around me seems like a chore at times, instead of feeling happy and in love, i feel burdened and aggravated. I know this is not a healthy relationship, but everything in my heart says go. Its just that slight twinge of change that scares me.

My kids would be ok, I would be okay. I am in no hurry to run out and meet anyone else. Date maybe, but as far as living with another man... its just not what i want right now. I could easily be happy on my own to raise my kids and live my life out single.

I really appreciate your advice Mav, seriously, thank you. Wish i had a close friend like you to talk to. Thats something else... I have NO friends here, none. I stay home, cook clean, and work. thats all. depressing. I try to get him to go out, movies, or something. But alas.. tired as always.

I really do not know why he wants me here... only thing I see, is I cook and clean for him, thats it. I mean... idk...