Re: was it rape or submission? TRIGGERING INFO

In addition to what I wrote, it seems to me that you were made to feel guilty in your childhood a lot. This whole rape thing is just a continuation of that. On some level you needed to make that kind of mistake (sumbission) so that you could beat yourself to pulp with guilty feelings.

Your therapy should concetrate on the ways your parents made you feel worthless and guilty for being human. To make mistakes (when we don't know better) is human, so there is no need to feel guilty.