Thanks for the response. I really needed to hear this and everything that was said. Obviously what I am doing doesn't line up with what I want, but it's easier to stay in than to get out and be heartbroken. But, at the end of the day, it is going to be better to just rip it off like a band aid and find someone willing to offer me what I want than to stick around and be hurt, confused, and sad. I don't know if I'm strong enough, but we'll see!