wow deep words you guys. i dont know i feel i need to go after what i want but in the end if its not meant to be its not meant to be. i do get what u two are saying i really appreciate. Yes, i am young and very bad with relationships. i didnt start dating till college. and well unlike most girls who played the games, and etc. im experimenting them now. i find it hard to believe because at the stage that i am i SHOULD be over this mess but i guess its all a lesson learned....