Does it ever stop?

It seems to me that anxiety and panic disorders are so much related.

When I was little, I was always afraid of animal toys. They would freak me out, and I would almost pass out if I would come near one. It took me my entire teenhood to overcome this.

When I was 19, I had IBS, panic in closed spaces, panic in a crowded place, panic in a quiet place and fear of injuries.

I worked my way out of it (alot of hard work and no meds). I was cured of all the above when I turned 23.

At 24, I started to have panic about normal life routines. I don't remember what it's like to be relaxed because even when my life is in order, I am still not settled. I tried my best to slow down and avoid/let go of things. My energy is so low, I barely go to work and come back home to my room of security.

I know with determination and strong will, I can overcome that the way I did before, but I keep questioning what is the point. I feel like walking in a close circle. I am suppose to be living the best days of my life.