i want 2 b anorexic...........

I want to start by saying that I dont want to make light of eating disorders by far. I know that they are serious conditions. I know that if I dont eat and exercise Ill lose weight. Im 315 lbs and very attractive but I have decided I want to be smaller.
I just wanted someone to tell me how to stay motivated as far as not eating? Because I have an addition of food out of this world. What do I do when my stomach growls? I just want to know how to get myself in a mindframe for the goal I want to acheive. And about how many days will it be before I see results? I hope I didnt offend anyone I just need incite. My moms side of the family is small and Ive always felt like an outsider just living in their world. PLEASE HELP ME!!! I need to know a good way to jump start my weight loss because Ive had it. Tweet