thank you for you/sharing/listening

Lori,

thank you.

though all be unraveling,

and I come "undone"

I am not undone,

I actually am becom---ing

You words/sharing meant alot. I was surprised it has been four days since I wrote.

Today looms large and gray,

yet I will be okay

in the end

I will find MY way, no one elses, what else can the journey entail.

I will be the relief, I will find the relief.

Frustration is a counterproductive emotion for ME.  Ihave such a desire for freedom that helpful "suggestions" ie cataract surgery is easy, simple, just 'go for it', irritates me, because I think, okay, you are suggesting I NOT listen to my body because for you it worked it will work for me.  I'm not replying to the messages below, but if they read this, I was open to what you said, it helped, it felt like I was understood. The messages below said to me, "we didn't HEAR you.  What your gut says isn't important.

Sometimes it doesn't matter what is said but what one percieves. I will do my life my way, and learn my lessons.  If they ended up with the comment that they hoped all went well for me....I will accept people and their limitations, someday, but right now, sigh....the easy "cut it out" way isn't easy for me.  I allow it to be easy for every one else. What happens if  I listen to "them" and then MY intuitions were right? If I'm wrong, I want it to be my O WN wrong.

I th ink I am getting stronger, more ME.  And eventually the world I will create, whether anyone else sees it, will be AMAZING.

thank you again Lori. I think what you offered is HOPE of getting trhough .

pj