Re: Shadows and Deafness (edited)

Thank you Invicible,

You suggest to me to try the processes given by Debbie Ford. I have the book "The Dark Side of Light Chasers" by her and read it twice or three times to get a better feeling of the whole process. Well I tried on several issues and I don't seem to get a clear result because as she said, I should see some figures/faces during the inner process. Well for your information, that's not what happened. All I have seen are just formless blobs of smog/fog, nothing else.
It seems that I think/perceive the reality on a more abstract level. That's because when I started to learn to read/lipread/speak, I had to develop an associative process from abstractness to thought-forms and viceversa.

The isolation issue doesn't originate from my birth, just a bit later in my kindergarten years. That's because in these years I've been a bit adventurous and always on the risky edge. My father punished me a lot for that so I had to suppress my sense of adventure on outer level.

About the guidance/submissiviness you're half correct. I only act on received guidance/advice if it feels good for me. After the death of my father, my relatives wanted to take control of my life because they said I wouldn't know how to survive, and they tried hard to impose on me their own beliefs regarding how to guide my own life. Well that backfired on them because their guidance/advices never worked for me (they didn't feel good for me). So I had to leave Romania because of that to stop their endless intrusion in my life.

Ynaig

Edit:

Whenever I think about my deafness I feel I've been wronged. Also I do feel frustration that I'm not accepted for who/what I am.

Also I think the metaphysical statement from Louise Hay seems to be more appropiate for people who experience extreme hearing loss at a later stage in life, not from birth.