Re: was i actually raped?

No you DID NOT ask for it! Not at all! They had no right to violate you--ever! Yes, you should tell your therapist!! It is not alright to "tough it out" -- why should you? If I had to hazard a guess, your Depression is very likely tied to this event. It doesn't matter what age you are, if you were violated (as you were) it's never too late to work on your issues. If you have any doubts, call a rape crisis hotline (you can find the number by using google). Those answering the phones at these hotlines are compassionate people who will keep your call confidential.