I am here. I so agree that people suck for not stating the obvious. I don't know what to say, except I know how you feel. I too feel suicidal. We cannot let those thoughts overtake us. I try to focus on the positive, which is hard to do. My estranged husband tells me it's all in my head. After I apologize for offending them with my odor, teachers say they have no idea what I'm talking about. I'd rather have it out in the open. I finally stood up in class and told everyone, " I have a problem, and I'm sorry if it offends you." It got me in trouble with the Dean. I was nice about it, but I guess it made someone feel uncomfortable. I want to keep in touch.