is anyone out there?

dear all those who understand... i feel so shit right now, i cant stop crying im all alone and i have no one to talk to no friends or family that look at my problem physically they say its psychological, they keep telling me its all in my head, the doctors they diagnose me with olfactory reference syndrome, even after all the comments and remarks have been made stating that i smell like shit. im 100% sure iv got fecal odour and only 6 out of heaps of people have said yeh you do smell, some poeple are so shit they dont have enough balls to tell you yeh you smell!. all my friends abandoned me, my boyfriend dumped me and i cant afford to buy all these cures that have been stated in these forums. does anyone else feel suicidal? im at the edge i need a friend so bad help me what do i do?