Re: exactly

i feel better everytime i just type what i am feeling. after you all attacked me about fixthedix and i had to defend myself i finally slept though the night for the first time in 3 years.
i remember asking for my records and having to pay for them and being fussed at because they thought i had a complaint. i had to collect 3 sets of records, i still have the messages of the nurses fussing at me telling me to refer myself to another doctor.
i had 6 jobs last year currently collecting unemployment check. i dont think i can be counted on to do a good job as a cna anymore. i was going to go to school for nursing but i cant focus and this Depression traps me in my bed room with my tv and computer. i keep my computer online because i hate the sound of the phone ringing. i cant stand to be interrupted during anything.

talk about electric company, the bills are do a different day every month, i was in bed watching ellen and everything shuts off. i had to pay the bill, reconnection fee, and a deposit, i been here for 4 years. i was so mad having to pay $654 for a light bill. i hate to be alone, i cant be in a 100% quiet room, i freaked out and had to leave, they took the entire day to turn my lights back even though i paid in 5 minutes over the phone. i was so mad by 5pm i called them and asked if they ever been sued for turning off lights, they hung up. that felt good. the lights cant be due the 14 then the 7 the next month thats crazy.