Re: learning,listening and forgiveness...
Rygar....are you drunk? LOL, you know I'm kidding.
The only way you are going to make progress is by working on it. Seems you are going in the right direction. You may miss sitting in your pile of sh*t, but then again, maybe it's time to clean up.
Yes, you are right, social interaction is completely shallow, especially in an office setting. There are so many corporate rules. You can't just blather on endlessly, pick you nose openly in a meeting, tell someone they are a prick....
But, you get some of those people out of the office and they can be completely surprising.....or not. It's hard to turn your office mates into friends though, because there are huge hurdles to overcome before one let's their hair down. It is entirely possible however.
I guess the best adage for human interaction and behavior would be, treat those the way you would want to be treated.
And you are also correct, everyone walking around you, talking to you, working with you, riding the bus with you, is potentially (and most probably) more messed up than you. I would be willing to put money on that. Many of them are lonely, sad, depressed, financially stricken, unhealthy (on so many levels), and the vast majority do not practice a healthy lifestyle, nor are they as introspective as you. See? You have insight. I'd say that shallowness you perceive keeps others from getting anywhere near where you can go.
So instead of mocking the masses, you can simply be one of the few people in their life to give them a laugh. They all need that so badly.
Molly