learning,listening and forgiveness...

well,my new attempts at listening,forgiveness and learning are all paying off.
I have realized that all social interaction is basically really shallow in a way and EVERYTHING should be taken at face value,appearances are decieving and image may sometimes be everything.I have opened up alot more ,listened,talked some but listening more,being a little more patient and understanding of other people,being more considerate and treating people with a little more respect and understanding their point of view..so far so good,I have learned a lot in only a few days.
I decided to start to learn how to care and appreciate people more..just as they are and as 'people'.Also seeing girls as human beings and with feelings just like me,maybe in prettier wrappers then others but still respecting them just as anyone else,not just some pawn in my twisted mind games or as tits and vagines lol.
I think I am getting the hang of this..I have always been a likeable person,it's just that I have had a giant stick up my ass for so long.

Also,I began writing positive goals down before bed,sealing them in an envelope and putting it away.I have forgiven people in written form..surprisingly it works lol.I actually feel better and feel better about myself..go figure.Compared to all of my
'hate fests' and venting,I feel alot better when just letting it go and forgiving others instead of getting mad and upset over nothing..sweet.



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I am positive I will meet someone soon,actually I already have ..I am just not totally in the recieving state or whatever just yet lol.
But soon!