Re: Off topic

Thanks again Soulfulsurvivor.

My encounter and I am very clear now that she was an N was only brief. I think I am in touch with my feelings and thoughts and I work through them and process them and over the last few days reflected on everything. I still sometimes think maybe it was just me, but I revert to the clear fact that she was defiently and N.

I cannot feel enough for ppl who are exposed to these ppl over years. It must take a long time to get over everything. Mine was and intense 7week stint. Things were fine at 1st but slowly I felt uneasy.

It was all about her. I was her audience. She wanted me to see her and I did, I fell for her, but at no point, even if she made me feel she did, she never really saw me as a person. That is because I was just an object, just her supply.

What is hard to come to terms with is that I was just that. Her notions of love were false.

So over the last 5 days I have worked thru a range of things and already I feel myself, when I never did for that time. I felt I couldn't be.

So. Again. To ppl who have had long term exposure to this slow and insidious behaviour, a word I found by reading articles, but a word that describes it perfectly. They have my sympathies.

What I also realise again from reading. That all the signs are soooooooo clear to see, but I/We choose to ignore them. I feel armed now and have the ability (I hope) to spot these people a mile off. One of these signs is the fact that I am slightly drawn to them for some reason, even tho I know I am not an INarc.

Thanks Again & Good Luck To All Tweet