Re: Will nobody help me out?

I don't even know where I was before I met him. I don't know what I liked to do. I was trying to find myself again when I met him. I was isolating myself by studying and exercising whenever I wasn't in class, I was living in a dorm. I didn't know many people in that area except for my sister. I was trying to adjust from being out of high school and away from "home"
I do things that make me feel okay...like go for a jog...but then I come home and fall right back in.

My parents and family live about 10 hours away from here. I won't be able to make it down for Christmas or New Years...

Honestly, he and I have been happy together. It's only when one of us starts to feel insecure. And since he's been gone, I've realized so much and I was at fault for more than I realize. I pushed his buttons intentionally. Honestly, I seriously just want him back. I mean, that's how I feel right now. I saw him today but we didn't talk too much. I think he's afraid to talk to me because he knows he still cares about me and he knows how much I love him. I don't know. I wish he were more open to discuss things.

I don't know why it ended. I'm so confused.
I'm so anxious. I'm here alone. I have nothing to do!!
I'm broke and have no friends around here.