Will nobody help me out?

I'm having a lot of trouble coping. I don't know how to make friends so I'm all alone except for when I talk to him about our pets and stuff we're going to work out when he gets his own place (he's staying with friends) and everytime that happens, I don't have the guts to tell him how I feel because I know I'm going to get rejected....and it's bad enough that I feel like shit once he goes anyway. So if I'm already going to feel horrible and anxious, I'm so reluctant to risk feeling even worse.