You have given me advice so I thought I would possibly give you some. It seems like you are like me. You want that freedom and the ability to move on, but you have something bigger stopping you from it. A child. Now the problem is, like I've said in another post. is people don't want to work today. They want to throw in the towel and assume the worst that things will never get better. Hence why the divorce reat is so much higher today. Are you a pisces b/c you sound like one. Taking a break can be helpful, but will it solve anything? Yes I've thought the same about leaving Jesse, I feel a moment of relief then it is replaced by sadness b/c what if when I leave it's not what I wanted, or worst what if it is. If you love someone you have ups and downs you will not be happy all the time, and that isn't any fun. I have no problem being alone and I'm assuming you don't either. Coming from a divorced family you haven't had a picture perfect meaning of what marriage is. My mother and father are divorced. My father divorced his second wife to and my mother divorced her second husband as well. She's married again now and making it work. I look at her relationship and ask her for advice because we are very much alike. You can take peoples advice and think over it. You don't have to follow it the only person who knows you is you. If you love this man think over what will make this relationship work. If it's nothing, then you need to take a step back and look over the situation. if you can think of ways then try them. Love isn't what it's portrayed in the movies unfortunatly. But it is a road of ups and downs. It's your choice to take the easy road or the hard road......