Re: Schizophrenia Cured

The fall down the stairs as an infant more than likely is a significant factor since you are remembering so. There is some interesting stuff written on this website that talks about an ammonia hypothesis. There is a lot there, so have a look.
http://biologyofkundalini.com/article.php?story=TheAmmoniaHypothesis

But I hope you don't mind that i go an a rant here about your strict catholic upbringing parents.
I can not emphasize enough the fact that the most exploited group of people on this planet are the children in this world. Every child has had their innocence stripped away from them by those thinking that they are somehow doing it in the name of good intentions... and for the child’s own good.

The child is left feeling that he is his own worst enemy. That he is not worthy of loving or capable of being loved by another. This leaves the child not accepting himself for whom he is. And for the rest of his life struggling to become a better person. And as time goes on, he just keeps moving further and further away from himself… moving deeper and deeper into the quagmire of misery, with little chance of ever really finding a real peace or joy in this life.

The only thing that one can be certain of is that death will someday happen and he can leave this life and the misery that has come with it.
This misery comes because you have been conditioned to be a masochist and that you are not worthy of love. One has to come to a breaking point to turn things around. It is the point of either completely breaking down or breaking through this deep hypnosis that binds, and prevents one from being free to be oneself.

The only road into a life of joy can only begin with loving yourself. It is the first step and if you have missed that first step then all other steps will lead you further into being more lost. Begin by loving yourself. Only then, can loving another or being loved by another ever be possible.

From reading your post, you probably know this already.

So, the first thing:
Man is a bridge. Man is the bridge that connects the animal to the divine. All the possibilities are within him. He can remain an animal or he can move into becoming godlike. It is his choice.
Man is both good and bad… together. He is the right and the wrong, together. Within man there is both God and Devil, together. Hence, man, alone, is capable of creating either his own heaven or his own hell for himself. It is up to man how he chooses to live. If he accepts himself as he is, he can be in heaven, if he rejects any part of himself, he will be in a hell.

During life as a fetus, before the birth, the world of the child is one. It is undivided… there is no good, no bad. There is no right and no wrong. There is nothing that is beautiful and nothing that is ugly, no happiness and no unhappiness. The child knows nothing of what the outer world is about. No idea of what money means… no concept of what possessions mean. No idea of what is proper etiquette or social manners or what ethics are… no saints and no sinners. All these notions, ideas and concepts is just information that comes from the outside… from the world outside… outside of oneself.

When the child comes out of the mother’s womb, the world begins to become dualistic, things start becoming divided into two because the child is taught to divide things into two. The mind of a newborn is a clear screen with nothing printed on it. But very soon the ideas of what is right and what is wrong, what is good and bad, start to become introduced at a very early age. The child’s mind absorbs this information like a sponge. And it is stored there like photographic film stores an image.

With so many people living together, and, in order for society to function better, more efficiently, it has taught its members to help teach the child to become useful, to become a useful cog in the wheel of society.
The social norms are considered to be the most important for people to learn so that they are able to live and function together.
And so, in the name of good intentions, the mother, father, family members, schools, churches, universities and other institutions condition the child with such concepts so that he is able to fit in and become a useful participant.

These ideas are then collected and stored within the mind and memory, and over time this accumulation of information becomes what is called the conscience of the individual. It is a common set rules one carries around within himself to help him function and to help keep a society orderly. And, because we are taught these concepts at such an early age, many individuals come to believe that these ideas are inherent, that they have always been there, since before birth. However, this is not the case. These ideas and concepts come from the society in which we are brought up. These ideas are not innate, not inborn. They do not come with us from within the womb. They are imposed upon us from the outside world after the birth.

My sister-in-law was schizophrenic. She had a multiple personality disorder. Knowing this woman, I would have never considered her to have such a problem. We always got along very well when we were together. I considered her to be as healthy as I was. Good one to talk to and had a good smile and sense of humor.
She grew up in the hills of Kentucky… in the Bible belt, her family was quite strong about the Christian faith. She ended up committing suicide. It was later told to me by her husband [my brother] that when she was young she was sexually abused by her father. Her mother blamed her for it, and being the way she was, full of the devil. She had enlisted in the military at an early age to get away from her family that blamed her for the evil that entered into their home. That is when she met my brother. My brother, to say the least, did not care for her parents mostly because they treated her very badly whenever they had visited them.

My understanding of this is that growing up in a family with very polarized beliefs in good and evil, God and devil, together with the sexual abuse by the father, had left her believing that she was a condemned soul, in this life and the one after. She must have been extremely traumatized with the stress and guilt of the situation, so much so, that in order to go on living with herself, she created another personality, one that would be responsible for all the bad things one is capable if doing. To be able to forget about it, in some way… that the wickedness that had happened was done by another person and not by her own self. My lovely sister-in-law, her name was Wanda, the evil one was called Wendy. I never met Wendy.

The ideology that is perpetrated by some religious sects that deny the fact that man is both capable of good deeds as well and the bad deeds is responsible for much misery that exists in this world. Man is both good and bad together. To deny the bad is to deny oneself. To not accept oneself in totality is to create tension in oneself, is to create dis-ease for oneself. To say man should only be good and blame the bad on some devil or evil spirit that lies outside of oneself is to create the disease of schizophrenia. To distance oneself from the evil, is to cause the conflict within oneself, is to cause the right hand to fight with the left hand, the left brain to fight with the right brain. Taken to the extreme and a deep division within oneself is created to the point that one’s mind will actually divide. One body and two minds… or three… or four minds.

Just looking at the mind and anyone can see it. Everyone is somewhat divided… everyone has several faces … several masks that they wear at different times. One face for your wife… and another for your children, another face you have for your boss… still another face for the checkout girl at the grocery… and another for the policeman that pulls you over. So many different faces we all carry around to show others… We are all schizophrenic… its just a matter of degrees.
And when polar opposites [which are in fact complimentary] are taken to the extreme… then a split can occur… the voice you hear from your conscience, from that repressed and unexpressed part of yourself, becomes another person… another spirit… another entity… but the other exists not. One is the world. And the world is what you are. It always has been. It always will be.

To think one has to escape from this world in any way is creating an impossible task. It is like saying how to escape from a dream. The only way to get out of it is to wake up. Waking up and the dream dissolves... the nightmare vanishes... and fighting with the shadows ceases.

What is left behind is a world of love, peace, joy.