jejeje... The word, "pontificate," did come across rather strong... I am in the same boat as you...as far as trying to figure this whole thing out... but for me sometimes i attempt sailing against the wind instead of with it... i guess that is why i have not walked out of my body yet...
i want to be like the little old church lady who hears her pastor talk
about a hateful God who sends sinners to hell...a God who sends
she-bears to kill forty and two children for laughing at a bald
headed prophet...but all she sees is love...The wars go on...the
children starve...a baby dies in her mother's arms...the politicians
lie...and she only hears the trumpet call of jubilee...it surrounds
her day... i am just not there... perhaps when i have given up all of
my ego...and realize all we do is "dust in the wind,"
i can become like her...always smiling...heaven surrounding me as it
does for her... as sky surrounds me when I look around from on a
mountain high...but I have just enough nerve and ego left to think I
can be the change that tips the balance to love... a little tiny light
on the dark side of the moon...
Love and Light to you Infinite Love...
Forgive me for waxing cold... I am not a prophet... or the keeper of the truth...but rather the sharer of my truth... I am just a little worm that eats up what I can... consuming the apple therefore making it rotten...