I know what you are going through. I have been through this too. I got married at 18 and tried to get pregnant for 4 years but it didn’t work out. I got disappointed because nothing was working out in my case and the only option I was left with was surrogacy. But I didn’t want to go for it because I thought the baby would not be my actual baby. I had a misconception that the baby through surrogacy will be similar to having an adopted baby.
I guess I needed the right counseling. I went to a clinic and they introduced gestational surrogacy to me. It is different than traditional surrogacy. I got to know that the surrogate mother will be implanted with the embryo formed by my egg and my husband’s sperm and the child will share our genes. And it will have nothing to do with the surrogate mother.
I have already wasted 4 years of my marital life on trying to have a baby through IVF. But hence it wasn’t working out, I didn’t want to waste more time on it because it had started affecting our marital relationship and I was afraid that my husband will leave me.
So now I have 2 boys. And I am living a happy life. I feel like my family has completed now. And I love my boys more than anyone in this world