It’s a such uncomfortable condition to be at the beginning of madly long path. Sometimes I think that would be better to start our program in the first clinic we accidently found.
Really what can we study from the distance? It seems as a very sly safe position to gaze after someone’s failures and losses, staying at home. We want to hear and read stories by people who had lived through this mess and misfortune but we don't want to experience our own troubles. i confess it's unfair.
Where is the time to begin?

Hello fellows! It was perhaps two lives ago. I can’t even imagine what I was getting though that time. I also found my diary of those days. There were some strange and scary notes. Look at following: I’m paralyzed, just paralyzed with all that pain. Or that – I feel agony of my miserableness. Oh, God! It shows my personal crisis I overcame later.
I stopped browsing through the clinics, by the way. My main task now is to raise my twins!!!
We returned home 5 months ago. My partner and I took part in surrogacy. Everything was arranged by Wcob – world center. It was a collective win. I would never have finished it on my own. I guess I’d be treated from mental disorders if I had no support of relatives.
Today, while my boys are sleeping, I decided to check on the old threads where I could leave a few words. That’s all I had to say.
I hope you are also doing Ok dear forumers!