yes my situation is really hard..
my heart is now full of anger.. not but anger..
coz of the people that is around me right now
all the bad things, the hurt, the stress and depress im making it as an inspiration..
that one day all be cure.. and show them that im better than them..
i know its really hard, to be feel like alone, to be helpless, to be in shame, to be lonely, that i just want to die..
but i know God is there.. doing this work out when im angry.. filling my self with determination when i want to eat meat.. always saying to my self that be patient.. coz everyday there will be a progress..
ill show them all, that i can do it without their help..