4chunit1
I used to be obsessed with getting bigger and stronger. I was the skinny, albeit talented (could dunk in 8th grade) kid who was sick of the bigger dudes being able to take off their shirts, yada yada yada. So I started lifting pretty hard at 21, ht the juice at 23, was 6'4" 203 at 4% body fat 8 months later. Sounds great until you consider that ANY women who I knew even somewhat said the same thing. And that was "I thought you were a lot hotter when you were thin. Now you just look like every other guy who has no self confidence". Paraphrasing a bit of course, but I got the point. My attitude never really changed, I kept my new muscles covered up, not wanting to be "one of THOSE guys". How hypocritical, I was THE GUY. I had family potraits taken yesterday, and I HATE how I look. I want that weight back. Out of all the cleansing side effects, being so thind outweighs ALL THE OTHERS. I know I'm a million times healthier, I'll live to see my granchildren, ect. But I don't care as sad as it is, I want that weight back. I;ve been conditioned to think I look "sick". Best of luck man, it's NOT an easy call. If I had to make the choice, as radical as I am, it would be hard.
Peace.
the4chunit1