"Remember also that all energy is sexual/emotional energy."
You have just described the 2nd chakra - which everyone on the planet has. But you've omitted the other six major chakras.
Learn to clear out each of your chakras, your energy channels, and your kundalini channels too, and that will cleanse your spiritual body which then cleanses your physical body and promotes physical healing.
We are each a bright shinning spiritual light. We are neither our sexuality or emotions.
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"You obviously have no actual experience with energy."
You've got it backwards. I've been meditating by running my energies on a daily basis for well over thirty years - without a guru, without even a group. Your chakras, each of them, is something you experience - you don't think about them. Turn within and you will find and experience your chakras and channels - all of them. In fact, thinking about anything is a body energy and will not benefit you for spiritual pursuits.
When you learn to recognize and experience who you are, the programming of others disappears.
I am my own guru - each and everyone of us has a guru within us. That's where all my answers are, and that's where all of your answers are at as well.
"Following a guru on the inside, which is what you have been doing, is just as bad as following a guru on the outside."
As I said before - the only guru I follow is within me and everyone of us has that same guru within us. Luke 17:21: "...behold, the kingdom of God is within you." I'll take that direction over what you wrote - any day.
"A true soul, or aspect of source, would always ALWAYS lead you to the TRUTH which is: your body is THE most important facet of spirituality and it is fundamentally who YOU are; whether you are floating around in some light realm or taking a dump on the toilet."
Body and spirit are completely different. Everybody on the Planet has a "true soul" within themselves and that's what we are here to do - to find it. Your body is only a temporary temple for you the spirit and your spirit - your true source, is leading you in every step you take whether it is in prayer, hitting your spouse, or the murder of your worst enemy. You are here to learn to follow the path that you mapped out before you as spirit took a body. Once again, to learn your "true soul" simply do as a spiritual leader taught 2,000 years ago and look within yourself.
"In fact, thinking about anything is a body energy and will not
benefit you for spiritual pursuits"
"Simply nonsense. Thoughts and emotions are energies that need to be
integrated with the physical body for genuine spiritual pursuits to be
actualized. Body energy is deeply, profoundly vital to spirituality. Your
statement could not be any more ridiculous."
Thoughts and emotions are all body energies - not spiritual energies. Turn off your thoughts for a few minutes. Just allow yourself to be. Body energy can be used to learn about spirit. The energies that are constantly moving in your chakras and energy system are available to heal you - if you turn within and acknowledge them.
"You claim to have only followed your own truth for the past 30 years but someone, or something at some point in time gave you the erroneous idea that you are a shining bright light and you are not your sexuality or your emotions, and that body energies will not benefit you for spiritual pursuits. In other words, you have been following the programming of others instead of learning to recognize who and what you are, which is obviously your body."
I take my direction from a very good source who in Matthew 5:14 said: "You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden." (emphasis added)
All you have to do to find the light within is to look there - and that goes for everyone on the Planet. To believe that you are your sexuality and emotions is a naive, childish view of reality. Love (4th chakra) has no connection whatsoever with sex and emotions (2nd chakra) - and never will.
1 John 4:8 "Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love."
Do you really think that that verse says that "God is sex and emotions?"
By the way - read about Rudi's NDE at the NDE site here on CZ. Very similar to thousands and thousands of other NDE's and very heartwarming too.
When you think that you are just sex and emotions, you haven't even reached puberty yet.
I know this is old but just like me others may end up reading this thread I want to comment on something. I was actually appreciating some of MichaelB's advice until he started putting #136970 down. Right then I just perceived him as a very angry man with no tolerance for differing points of view, which is not very mature IMO, and much less spiritual. Anyone who is convinced they know the truth doesn't have to resort to putting others down by calling what they believe "nonsense", etc., to me it was like watching someone becoming unhinged because their dogmatic beliefs had been challenged, too bad... To be honest, in the end I found it rather amusing and enlightening, and #136970 I think you handled it all pretty well, this whole thing taught me a little something.
As for the OP, Katie66, I hope the changes you made have been helping. I always found in the past that cleaning up my diet, taking some supplements and exercising were of great help so that's what I'm trying to do right now myself. Best wishes!