Give her a second chance, but don't trust her too much!
Try to find out why would she decide to come back to you?
Does she feels the same connection toward you, the same kind of love that you feel toward her?
If her only reason to stay with you is economical or for the sake of kids, or until she can find some other place to stay, then you do not have future together.
But still, you need to forgive and show respect toward each other, for the sake of kids and for your own mental and emotional health.
How to deal with your anger? How to deal with jealousy?
Easy.
Find another woman and have sex with another woman and then tell to your wife that now you are even, and now you both can start a new life.
It is important to be even and equal in a relationship, or if she owns you too much, there will be imbalance.
That is what you feel right now. She cheated, you din't.
You are suppose to forgive, while she does not have anything as important to fogive.
You have to be even.
So, you do have to find another woman, and you do have to have sex with her once, with condom, to be 100% even and equal. But don't do it in your home.
Another way of looking at this story:
Was she a virgin when you met her? I guess not.
Were you a virgin when you met her? Sure not.
So, you f*cked many women before her, and she f*cked many men before she met you. That is a fact.
Was all that sex with other men before you met her making her any more dirty in your eyes? I guess not, or you would not have married her.
Was all that sex you had with other woman before you met her making you any more dirty in your own eyes? I guess not.
Then there is no reason for jealosy!
So, if you are not considering yourself being dirty, why punish her for the same sin?
Ever heard of word Karma?
What you do to others, it comes back to you?
So, who the f*ck cares if she slept with one more man.
It is just sex. Few minutes of her life.
Sex she had in the past is past. Sex you had in the past is past. Cheating is past. Leave past behind.
Live new life!
Look in the future. You are not a first couple who experienced that.
What you really need is to find out if she wants to live with you out of respect for you and out of love, or not.
Love = respect.
She did not show respect toward you when she invited other man to your home.
Can that be repaired?
Can you trust her again?
Only if she shows that she really loves you and that she really regrets what she did.
How to repair your relationship?
Stop reminding her that she cheated. you know what happened, and the story is over.
Is there a future for you two?
Is there enough love in your hearts to forgive?
Only you two will know.
Give it a time.
If you break a leg, it takes ,many months to heal. Do not expect broken heart to heal any faster.
Give it a time.
You do not have to make all decisions today.
Her clock is ticking, but not yours.
You already regretted bringing this problem to your friends and your family.
Now you know who your real friends are: those who support your decisions no matter what. They are the real friends.
That is how friends show respect.
It is easy to be a child, and to react with anger. Take a toy from a child, and child will get angry.
That was your first reaction. It was childish reaction. It was reaction we are programmed with. It's easy reaction.
It is easy to be angry. It takes no power. It takes no courage. No wisdom.
But, it takes a mature, grown-up man to forgive.
Those friends who lost all respect for you have never been grown ups in the first place. They are kids.
Your wife is also a child (on the emotional level).
Be aware of it.
Would she be able to grow up. To behave like a woman?
Time will tell.
Do not rush.
You have all your life in front of you.
No matter what you do, forgiveness is the only way.
Do you know how do we show to our children that we love them?
I am talking beyond providing food and shelter and birthday presents. Beyond listening to them and spending quality time with them.
We show to our children that we love them by showing to them that we love the other parent.
Kids that grow-up without seeing mama and papa loving each other, they will be emotionally handicapped for the rest of their life.
Your wife is most likely one of those kids.
I doubt she was able to watch her parents expressing love to each other.
Arguing, screaming to each other is not a way to express real love. Stop with that cause you are hurting your own kids. And, they are more important then you or your wife.
Tomorrow, when you are gone, would you like your kids or your grandchildren to go through the same experience you have just gone through? Sure not.
That decision you are making today. What you do today, how you handle this problem, the echo of your actions will be bouncing off the walls of your children and of next generations to come.
Make sure that echo is a positive one, echo of love, not echo of anger.
Positive feelings: love, joy, respect, need to protect, need to support, need to help.
Negative feelings: anger, depression, anxiety, greed, ego, need to be right, need to punish, need to hurt, sadness, pain etc.
Alcohol promotes negative feelings.
Both you and your wife should stop drinking forever. Both of you have too much negative.
Whenever you find yourself nurturing negative feelings, try to turn it the other way, try to find love in your heart.
Two wolves story
An old Indian grandfather was talking to his grandson who had come to him with anger at a friend who had done him an injustice.
"Let me tell you a story," said the grandfather.
"I too, at times have felt a great hate for those that have taken so much, with no sorrow for what they do. But hate wears you down, and does not hurt your enemy. It is like taking poison and wishing your enemy would die. I have struggled with these feelings many times."
"It is as if there are two wolves deep inside me; one is good and does no harm. He lives in harmony with all around him and does not take offense when no offense is intended. He will only fight when it is right to do so, and in the right way. He saves all his energy for the right fight.
But the other wolf, Ahhh!"
the grandfather continued,
"He is full of anger. The littlest thing will send him into a fit of temper. He fights everyone, all the time, for no reason. He cannot think because his anger and hate are so great. It is helpless anger, for his anger will change nothing."
"Sometimes it is hard to live with these two wolves inside me, for both of them try to dominate my spirit."
The boy looked intently into his grandfathers eyes and asked:
"Which one wins, grandfather?"
The grandfather smiled and quietly said:
"The one I feed!"
(Author unknown)
Do not feed angry wolf, if love and happiness is your real goal.
If love and happiness for you and your kids is not your real goal, then you should rethink how healthy you are.
EricB