Why would you kill yourself? If it is so mild you don't know what it is, chances are good that you will have minimal issues with this in your life.

In the beginning I think I stopped counting at about 27 sores, I had a fever of 105 and walking killed me if you look up all the textbook symptoms of a horrible outbreak- I had every single one. I have horrible sore on top of sore for a long time. All I saw in my future was darkness.

Fast forward, Dr. Beck later and one acyclovir pill a day (of the 4 I could be taking) I don't have outbreaks beyond I may feel one starting and take some silver and an extra pill or 2 and that's it. I am trying to wean off the pills but that is a whole other story. One pill a day beyond how horrible my life was, it's been worth it. Long term I think my immune system being strong is where my real freedom will come from.

I got married to an amazing person, who is sweet,caring, honest,good looking, I didn't settle in any area with him. I have a family and my life is not good, it's great. I freaked out about telling him and he said that pretty typical "I thought you were going to tell me something horrible". He was relieved. Our kids did not catch it in birth.

I also had chronic fatigue with it, I could hardly make it through work, but that has become a thing of the past too.

Herpes can be managed, you can have a great life with it. the thing that sucks the most about herpes is it's name.