Still and all, there needs to be amind practice that relieves you of anxiety about your health
In my Sat Nam rasayan study with the Sihks we did an interesting practice last night
We were working on our partners immune system, by opening the sacred space and having the intent to balance and stregthen the immune system. Heady stuff...and I gotta admit I love to visualize which is the pitfall with beginners I visualized a auric etheric layer about 3 foot around the patient and added more ether and held the space of "immune stregthening" - let it go and then sat in a meditative quiet space while my patient partner "healed"
This is a very interesting feeling the intent to heal and the space holding by others and being in relation to others in the neutral healing space, where your own internal dialouge is not helpful and can create resistance to healing
the benefit is you heal while healing others since the opening of the space does not allow for anything else
One of the considerations we were asked to consider is How is my self esteem, what is my anxiety level and how is our mental state at this moment. It tickled me to understand immunity has to do with self esteem and anxiety - of course once spoken it becomes a "no brainer" but before
Genetically-Modified gave us the information my mind was looking for more concete answers
So how is your self esttem and anxiety levels?
At some point one will become very good with this technique and just think one healed and then it will be so (Our friend Jesus had this ability) And so with some other healers I have met, one in particular who could hold the healing space line for a hour.
I have met others who have too much of their own junk in the space to be effective, in fact, their own agenda causes harm. Personally they are a complicated and messy. One of them has such a quest for more money and stability in his practice and adoration by his patients that sexual overatures were spontaneous. This puts too much "other" (ie themselves) in the healing- so the healing is manipulation and reqires them to be involved in all further endeavors of the patient to get well. (Self Serving and unethical)
I digress, there is a book I have just finished reading by one of the yogi's that explains the process but unfortunaely some of the states o healing are difficult to put words to and are mainly experiential. Quite frankly, had I not already been practicing this modality I would not hav eunderstood the book. If you are currently invloves in energy work it may be helpful
A conundrum?
Welcome to the earth plane ;}