Thank you for the question regarding your job and your personal situation.

From what I hear, you saying on many levels, you are relatively happy in your current job, as it has many advantages and you have made friends with many people within the practice.

Therefore, what I would suggest is you talk to your boss, discuss your concerns regarding holidays, and suggest they consider reviewing your contract of employment to include some leave.

Regarding your personal relationship with your friend, what I would suggest is that you consider what you want in this moment of Now. By that I mean, what when you look in your heart would really bring you Joy?

A lot of your question related to things that happened, a long time ago. What I am asking you to do is be aware of your current situation and your current feelings and focus on what you want now in this moment.

Your very nature is bliss and joy, if you allow your mind to rest, expand and be present in the moment; you can connect to your heart and the entire universe around you. Please start to look within and become aware of your inner feelings, emotions and needs.

I would be pleased if you could read my Blog on Curezone, starting at the oldest and work back to the current post.

You can get to the site by going to:
http://curezone.com/blogs/f.asp?f=95 Then go to previous page 1 and start from the bottom.

Just click on the article heading to read the whole article and the next and next, I think you will find most of the answers you are looking for are contained in this text.

Please get back to me with your further questions in about a week when you have had a time to read what The Blog contains.

I will send your healing. Next time you rely please, include your first name and town as it helps to send the healing.

George
HealerGeorge

Dear Raynbo,

I hope Healer George won't mind if I comment
on your situation, and add some suggestions
to the good ones he has already given you.

You mentioned that your long-lost love has
ended your relationship; the second time
that he broke your heart. You also mention
that he has been on anti-depressants all his
life; as many as 5 at a time.

It seems to me that God has saved you from
a life-long relationship that would have been
VERY, VERY stressful. Try to imagine what your life would
have been like, day to day, if you had married this man, 20 or 30 years ago, and had
to live, day to day, with his chronic depression -- not to mention the SEVERE side-
effects of anti-depressants. Many wives in that situation, end up being beaten and battered,
and even killed. Don't let you ego tell you
that you would have made a difference in his
life; that he wouldn't have been chronically
depressed had he married you way-back-when.
No, chances are good that you would have been
miserable, and rued the day you ever married
him.

God saved you from that horrific scenario;
not once but twice. Instead of crying, get
down on your knees and thank God, the Universal Soul, for having the wisdom to know
what is best for you.

I urge you to return to your spiritual practices. You say that you have meditated
with enlightened beings. Do you know how
rare that is? Trust your intuition about
what form your meditation should take, and
where you should be, when you're doing it.
Begin reading good books about the spiritual
quest by writers like Eckhart Tolle, Swami
Rama, Deepak Chopra, Marianne Williamson,
Carolyn Myss, Anthony De Mello, and others.

Begin saying affirmations every day, preferably before you go to work in the morning. Go to the affirmations forum, and
read my post of about 10 days ago -- "Why
saying affirmations is important to you" --
and read some of the groups of affirmations
I've posted, and which I say regularly.

Create some affirmations of your own. especially one that addresses the situation
with your long-lost love. I've come to believe
that saying affimations regularly is a POWERFUL way to change your life for the better; to heal yourself physically, emotionally, and spiritually. It certainly
works for me.

Perhaps you can find some people in your
community who need your love: old people
who are alone in nursing homes or hospices;
children who desperately need some gentle
TLC from a wise and gentle woman. Think
seriously about finding a way to Give Back.
Trust your intuition about how to do that.

You mentioned bladder pain. Chances are good
that those years of antibiotics killed off
all the good bacterial in your digestive
tract. In your place, Raynbo, I would be
taking digestive enzymes and probiotics with
every meal (which I do). I would eat watermelon every day, if possible. Watermelon
is wonderful at cleansing and healing the
urinary tract. I also recommend a supplement
which I've been using for years to protect
my urinary tract. It's called Uri Care, and
is made By Himalaya Herbs. The six ingredients in Uri Care are herbs from India,
with proven reputations. Himalaya's website is: http://www.himalayausa.com
A bottle of 90 tablets costs less than $20.00

You also should be drinking LOTS of pure water. That alone will flush out all kinds off
toxins. Take a big thermos-full of water to
work with you; preferably home-distilled water.

Enough for now! I hope you listen to your Inner Guide, your deep intuition, and
follow the suggestions it gives you. You
won't be misled. I will keep your in my
prayers, Raynbo.

Blessings,

Owen

Http://owen.curezone.com/

I am also 60's fm been along for 11 yrs. Pick up your boot straps girl and quit creating fear and misery in your life. Find some upbeat people or music to be around and don't watch the national news. you are worth it. believe in you, you are the one who counts here. as far as the bladder is going try eating a whole water melon it cleans the kidneys and bladder out. I do oil pulling and it has helped me emotionaly, i love it you can read about it on curezone under oil swishing on the first page left hand side. go girl. you can do it. I am.