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Day 8 - part 2
I'm begining to think that my stress level is what throws me off of my well intentions. Everytime I get stated and am doing well for myself something gets in the way and I become stressed and let it all fly to the wind. I NEED to reverse this action!
Date: 12/6/2006 9:52:13 AM ( 18 y ) ... viewed 1891 times Well, Day 8 didn't fare so well for me. I ended up barely drinking any water at all and the whole thing just kind of went down hill. I went to Whole Foods during my lunch break and that made be feel good. I got some organic apples and mangos and bunch of soup I can keep at work and eat for lunch and a few other "goodies", pumpkin and sunflower seeds and trail mix.
I'm begining to think that my stress level is what throws me off of my well intentions. Everytime I get stated and am doing well for myself something gets in the way and I become stressed and let it all fly to the wind. I NEED to reverse this action!
Lately I've been having some bed time struggles with my 1 1/2 year old. It makes me crazy every night because her father and I can't see eye to eye on how it should be done. Everything used to be great until we switched schools and she could no longer have a paci. Plus I am always defending myself and out relationship.. that's a whole other story.
Last night was espeically bad because I had another one of my "episodes" I'm not really sure what it is and I have yet to have it checked out by anyone in the medical community. Mostly because I'm scared of what they will say, what they will do, what kind of medicine they may perscribe and most of all.. how many visits there will be until the find out what's actually wrong.
This left me feeling, down and sick to my stomach last night so to have to deal with him and a child that wouldn't go to sleep really didn't help. This morning was even worse as her father has reduced himself to childish and immature antics.
No wonder I can't get healthy.. I can't focus and I get stressed and irritated so easliy. I try, breathing and all that but it is practically impossible as I don't have a quiet place to go to in my house where I, alone can just unwind. It just doesn't exsist. I would love to go for a walk or something but that doesn't seem feasible either at 10 or 11 at night.
I hate starting over all the time.. it's just not working.
" Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results is the definition of insanity!!!"
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