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Day 24--Compliments and food thoughts
Good and bad
Date: 11/8/2005 12:49:35 AM ( 19 y ) ... viewed 1920 times I got two indirect compliments at work today. First the librarian this morning complimented me on my sweater, in response to which I complimented her on hers. She then said we could trade except that she said I "must be about 14 sizes smaller." I would never have thought of her as a large lady, actually just a very nice-looking one. She would not have struck me as fat or thin, either way.
Then later, my assistant came by my office and when I came around my desk to give her something she remarked that she had never noticed how "petite" was, gesturing to mimick a slim LOWER body (my pet peeve). I have to say, that's the way I'd prefer people to notice the fact that I'm slim (when I am). I'd like them to notice and remark to themselves, "oh, I had never noticed she was so slim." That's as opposed to "wow, she lost a lot of weight," or even worse" "wow, that porker dropped some serious pounds." :P If people have to notice something, let them notice that I look good, not that I look "so much better." That implies that I once looked not that great, and I really didn't look terrible ever.
I'm also trying to decide what to think about thinking about food. Initially I was feeling bad about even just thinking about food, until I realized I was pretty solid in not eating. Especially as I rack up additional days,... I don't think I could ruin it for myself. I do almost have romantic memories of binging a long, long time ago. I think it's more romantic thoughts about the food I ate back then, because the truth is that I was so miserable at those times. Even during the times that I was able to binge just once a week and keep a very slim figure by restricting the rest of the week (not a goal I'm shooting for any time soon!!)... I was still miserable because I knew that equilibrium would be (and was) very fragile. I can't decide whether it's a bad thing and I should try not to think about food, or whether I should just let myself think about it, knowing that I just can't HAVE it now. hmmm. A good compromise most of the time has been to focus on foods that would work well for me on the low carb diet. Well, right now, it's just making me hungry. And eating broth on Friday and Saturday made me hungry too, I think. So, enough of that for now. The thing is that now I've been walking, and I walk by alllllll these restaurants. Thankfully mostly Mexican and other stuff I can't stand... But there are a few that are tempting. :( And so many more days to go... Well, for now, let's focus on 15 more days until I weigh in again. We'll see from there. Where I am and have a better estimate at how much longer it will take me to get to my goal. The other thing about that weigh-in is that I don't want to screw up the stats. If I were to cheat now, I wouldn't know how much I was losing per day, approximately, because I had not stuck to the process. So, almost done with the fifteenth day before the weigh-in. Stick to it!
:P
Hope everyone is well. For goodness sakes, post something somebody.
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