I wonder how other "Fibros" are feeling about heading into their senior years with chronic pain, plus the added pains of senior citizens?

   And, how do you feel about the lack of progress in diagnosis and treatments for Fibromyalgia [etc]?

    I also wonder how 30 or 40 years of daily pains has changed you, and me. Do we even know what changed us? - it is difficult to know that because of the long timeline - everybody changes in 40 years.

   And how has it affected you to know that most other people  STILL scoff at our invisible pains, and assume that "its all in your head"? Were there times when you believed them, and doubted your own truth? [social pressure can do that!!]. It is odd that the unaffeted remember "its all in your head" after all this time,

   Personally, I have lost a lot of my vitality - I am just not very enthused about anything, although I still pretend I am - "Yes, lets go fishing!!", and "I feel so good after a long bike ride" [a bald faced lie, lol]

 I am not suicidal, but I really do feel like I have lost my will to live - like if something was about to kill me, I wouldn't really care. I know, I know - my instincts will kick in and I will save myself.

  And, as in my previous post here, there is the frustration, the big let down,  that no progress has been made for diagnosis or treatment. I was eventually asked to try morphine, and I have been an addict for 25 years now, and so the treatment dominates my life now [especially since the College demanded reductions to the amount of prescribed morphine - in over 100 years of morphine prescribing, reductions were NEVER considered due to the fact that lower doese provide ZERO effect when a patient is tolerant to the higher dose].

  so I am ANGRY about the way Fibro has been treated.

   How do YOU feel?

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