June 13, 2011
Date: 6/13/2011 1:36:52 PM ( 11 y ) ... viewed 32356 times
Okay, so basically, I finally finished school. This created some fears in me because of the long time and effort I have put into finishing this goal. I have put the past two years into focusing on this and denying a large part of myself that now I am able to re-open up. I also am still working at my internship but that seems to be just giving me some kinda structure under my feet and also I'm getting hours towards licensure. I am not going to have money of my own until I start making my own... I am not sure what I'm doing in my life currently. Still feeling lots of turmoil in my relationship and now a man from the past came back into my life and I have renewed sense of care and attraction to him.
I could rent out the master bedroom and live on that money each month. A strong part of me wants to break up with my boyfriend now that I finished school, but I believe fears hold me back from doing all of these things. I want to make sure I make the right decisions because I have a lot of survival fears.
Again, I still struggle with food and my body. Today: June 13, 2011 11:35am Pacific time... ultimate goal: to have money of my own, feel free, and weigh 105 to 110 pounds and eat healthy and nourishing foods.
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