Still day 3 and Wow the little devil on my shoulder is very persuasive!

Wanting to binge with a vengeance

Date:   3/23/2008 9:02:30 PM   ( 16 y ) ... viewed 1860 times

Whew, I did not think i would make it through today! My inner voice kept telling me i might as well give up cuz i will never make it anyway. Luckily my boyfriend did not "enable" me when i was dropping subtle hints like "Well, maybe i should just go get some Yoshis or something, after ALL it is Easter"... Ok so maybe they werent so subtle. Instead he coerced me into going to the gym with him, I didnt have as much stamina as he did, but i guess it was better than sitting at home and noshing on take out japanese. *sigh* I guess that is what got me in this condition to begin with. I have not been taking any of my medicines either, i figured there is probly enough crap stored with my fat to get me by, and maybe if im lucky i will not need any of them anymore! (take medicine for prediabetes, thyroid, depression, and irregular cycle)

Its amazing how much food has controlled me, even now i am sitting here typing in defense, cuz all i really want to do is go binge! I am so hoping that this cleanse will help me take control of myself and eat to live instead of the other way around.
Gonna try and go to sleep before i do sumting stupid like eat every thing in the house!

Best to all!
Cristi

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