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I screwed up. 17 y
I gave into my emotional eating...
Damnit! I majorly f***ed up. I don’t even want to think about all the junk I gorged myself on a couple of hours ago. And it didn’t even make me feel any better. I feel worse, and not just becauseI know I screwed up, but because of course my system wasn’t ready for all that solid food. Now it is back to square one. I’m going to try to keep going, even though I’ll be basically starting from scratch.
That was my emotional eating right there. I feel so depressed even now. I’m so goddamned lonely. I’m sick of being in my apartment, but it’s not like there’s anybody to see or anythin ... read more Day 3...this is getting tougher. 17 y
Cravings even without hunger, and jealousy of people eating is starting to get to me.
Today is getting successively worse. I don’t feel particularly hungry (I hardly have at all this whole cleanse, except, ironically enough, when I want to sleep), but I am getting bored, which is making me feel depressed.
I have been avoiding most of my friends this week so that I could steer clear of behaviors and activities that generally cause me to eat. I really missed having lunch with J like I normally end up doing on Fridays. I thought of the food there, which is delicious, and I still don’t feel hungry, but I feel as though it will make me happy. I am the epitome of an emotio ... read more Success and a little bit of happiness..Day 2 17 y
I finish explaining what day 2 was like on the MC, going through overall feelings and experiences.
This day has gone so much better than I expected. I had class from 9:30-3:30 and I was barely bothered at all with hunger pains. In fact, I saw plenty of people eating and didn’t even care to have what they were eating. The only thing that went against that trend was that every time I passed the vending machines (there are about 6 I have to pass on my way to each class), I was tempted, out of habit, to go get something to eat, or at least a Vault Zero.
After my last class I felt so energized (I carried around a 32oz water bottle of my lemonade during classes), that I decided to go to ... read more Revved up for Day 2! 17 y
Everything is going well on Day 2!
Day 2 is off to a good start! I went to sleep last night with a knawing feeling of hunger, but I don’t feel all that hungry this morning!
I almost didn’t do the SWF this morning simply because I didn’t want to get out of bed. Fortunately (I suppose), I was shoved out of bed by the cramping in my stomach from the laxative tea. Each of the two times I’ve taken it it takes precisely seven hours to start cramping me up and forcing me to the bathroom. Luckily I got some sleep this time, since I didn’t have it until midnight.
I actually prefer the SWF to the laxative tea. Sure, it tas ... read more Day 1 17 y
I'm so excited, and I just can't hide it...
I’ve officially embarked upon my master cleanse! Yay!
I’m trying to do things the ”right” way. And with this thought in my head, I woke up at the ”early” hour of 11am and made my first SWF. I didn’t like it, that was for sure, but I didn’t react like I have read some people have - that is, violently throwing up. I managed to get a few gulps every minute or so. In between those I would stomp my feet and say how nasty the thing was. Thank goodness my roommate wasn’t there, or he might have been very confused. Well, I finished in within fifteen minutes and proceeded to ... read more On my way! 17 y
A little background on me before I embark on my first MC!
I am on my way to beginning my first Master Cleanse, or the Lemonade Diet, as some call it. I found out about the Master Cleanse in a fitness magazine that I recently read (I won’t say the name since I’m not sure that’s allowed), and I was intrigued, to say the least. So I researched it online and found droves of people doing this, and it sounded like something that would be wonderful for me.
I am inexperienced in anything like the MC. I have fasted for five days in the past, on a purely water fast, but that was the extent of it, and I only did it once, many years ago. So, I am really ... read more |