caffeine withdrawal, suicidal despair, parasite cleanse, need help please

I need to eliminate caffeine from my life for a parasite cleanse, and then the liver flush. Everywhere i read that caffeine is a no-no, and this is keeping me from starting any cleansing, because I usually wake up in despair, and it's the caffeine that brings me to a functional level. I tried going without it today, and had lemon water instead, but the panic and suicidal thoughts became intolerable within an hour. At that point I had two cups of coffee, and that stopped the suicidal feelings. I am so tired of being trapped. I only have two cups of coffee or tea a day, for the past twenty years. I began drinking it to self-medicate Depression when I was 14, and it may have contributed to some of my health problems now. Even with caffeine, I am not doing well, which is why I am wanting to start liver flushing, and which is why I want to get rid of parasites.

My question is, how to get off caffeine and not feel deeply suicidal? There are many things in my life that make me very sad, and caffeine blocks them out somewhat. Is there a supplement that can help? Is it normal to feel deep despair like that? Can I keep having green tea while I parasite cleanse?

Thank you so much for any ideas. Tweet