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Happy St. Valentine's Day
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Date: 2/14/2011 8:33:58 PM ( 13 y ) ... viewed 31802 times Happy St. Valentine's Day!
Today the spell broke. OMG. I took 4 hours off from work and got up later than usual. I had an ice pack on my head for hour and talked to my sponsor.
I ate crap today. So what. I'm alive.
It is like a fog that lands on me.
I did an hour of reading and meditation in the morning. Wrote out a gratitude list. Texted and called people to find out how THEY were. Focused on the task at hand at work while I was working. Had inspirational music playing in the background. Read the Big Book. Called my sponsor and shared honestly what was going on.
I felt pain physically by the time 7pm rolled around. I took the suggestions, took the actions and still grief somehow catches up with me and stays.
If I hear one more time that G*d does not give us more than we can handle I am going to scream. Just scream.
"Well, you made it through - see, you can handle it." I hear people say.
Man, that kind of talk turns me into my mother every time. Restraint of tongue and pen and I'm back into.
Ever see Alien? Whatever pops out of the victim's chest is what I vision every time I think I'm gonna lose it in response to such drivel.
If G*d didn't give me more than I could handle:
1. I wouldn't need Him.
2. There would be no Alcoholics Anonymous
I am debating the point to myself. I am such an alcoholic.
Here I am. Better. Thank you G*d. Made it through - til next time.
There's got to be a point to all this.
LOVE
Oh, I forgot.
Thanks.
*hug*
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