Re: sorry..just venting.........................

Dude, you're going to be ok. All these feelings you're having sound to me like you're growing up. Growing pains. I'm having them too. Don't really know what I'm doing, trying to find who I really am. Hmm, I may be totally wrong, but maybe not.
Sounds like you need some real emotion to feel and aww love, isn't that the best one? You need to look elsewhere for your chicks. Bar chick or dude hunting leads to stupid relationships. Don't ask me where to meet people, I have problems meeting decent people too, but we do exist! You're one man and you know it.
A big problem I seem to have in life is just living in the moment. Not worrying so much and just chilling out. I think maybe that's your problem too.
Just some thoughts. Have a good one.