I know where you are coming from Nightchild. Last summer I quit with the help of Nicotine gum but it only lasted 2 1/2 months. It was hell for me as I wanted a cigarette the whole time, I was depressed and angry and to top it off I gained 20lbs in that time. I can not afford to gain as I am already 40lbs overweight! So I started smoking again and quit gaining weight but now here I was 60lbs overweight and still smoking. I thought that when I quit I would have all kinds of energy, wrong! I felt like crap!! But I still want to quit because I am afraid of dying from it. I want to live to be a grandma and enjoy those golden years. I have been smoking for 27 years and am sure I have done damage to my body. Then one day I came across the website (Curezone) by accident and started reading and lurking through out the posts on many topics. I couldn't believe there was so much that I could do to help myself. I started with the P&B shakes and started the Paragone cleanse a week later. I did quit drinking Pepsi which was another of my addictions. I started drinking lots or water!! It has been just over a month since I started this and will be finishing the Paragone cleanse this weekend. I have lost 12 pounds and I feel good. I think I will start the liver cleanse next. Also starting easy exercising, walking and don't laugh (Richard Simmons videos) his are easy for me to follow. My plan is that I will be more in controll of my body and mind and this summer I will quit smoking! I will substitute cravings with exercise and water. Sorry for the long post but I am glad to see a quit smoking forum here and had to let you know that you are not alone.