Re: I F*** Up!!! Mix business w/ pleasure

"We tend to get way too wrapped up in the drama/trauma of forcing a relationship to work that was never meant to be."

WOW I truly believe i was acting the way i was acting b/c i was trying to do the above. i realize I can't FORCE anything and I need to DATE and explore. Well when i say I LOVE YOU to him....well I love him as a PERSON. I DONT see myself being with him till death do us part, through sickness and health.

SoulSurvivor: YOU ARE RIGHT!!

I was FORCING this relationship to work. And when he told me that we need to be friends and nothing more i got mad and took it out on him which made thins worse b/c he never saw that side of me. Another reason i was acting like this is b/c well he played with my emotions once HE GOT INTO TOWN. Like I said, Thursday night, he was like "Natasha, lets be friends, nothing more, and lets be business partners" Then Friday night comes when I see him in peroson and its a whole new ball game. The firlying, the body language, the eye contact, the extra attention, etc......
Now he thinks my personality on the phone is all FAKE which sucks b/c part of the reason i was acting like the way i was is b/c i was SHY. I know its weird for my age but its true.


I can sit here and admit that i never DATED!! I never had fish in the sea and basically explored my options i always end of FORCING and moving way to fast. Then when im actually WITH THAT PERSON i wonder why i am b/c we dont get along as much. ...then I would stay and FORCE to work it out b/c i dont want to be ALONE.


As of last week, I met a few people and well its my way of dating, exploring, and taking it slow for the VERY FIRST TIME. I realized DONT TAKE THINGS TOO SERIOUS.



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